Fasting, calories, b/p talk, safe foods, weight and numbers in general. Ill never post or retweet body checks/thinspo
underweight and overweight people constantly trying to prove they’re healthier than eachother is so funny
yeah true admit that you're giving urself metabolism and concentration issues instead of applying the self discipline on studying or working or literally anything elsehttps://twitter.com/pradandcigs/status/1439540909427859458 …
My ed isnt only about my body theres a lot that ties into it, but i do want to eat and like food. Part of the restriction for me is not just a coping mechanism though but because i dont like what food does to my body, or how others will perceive my body changing.
I might make (vegan) mac and cheese 2am or 10 o clock in the morning if im binging. It doesnt happen that often but omg the way my binging can escalate so quickly from a small amount of reactive eating into binging scares me.
I feel like a gluttonous piece of garbage whenever im in a bad bp cycle & can NOT stop myself from eating its like all my ed rules fly out the window.
I can go a long time w/o eating something if the cals dont feel worth it because i don't want it bad enough but i dont have a long list of fear foods i have sworn off of. Theres 2 things i wont eat pizza, and anything w food coloring but other then that cico ill eat what i want
Ive walked so much today the bone on the bottom of my foot is hurting even with the cushion of two pairs of socks maybe its time to stop it
The truth is, 50% me purposefully avoiding confrontation 50% my parents ignoring pretending its normal makes me forget my normal isnt normal. I do have issues everyone is too tired to deal w them &i feel bad that my parents have the pain of watching me so i hide whatever possible
My parents sometimes try to encourage me sometimes to eat x or go to the doctor but for the most part they leave me alone. Its puts my ed in the position where i tell myself see im fine, even my parents think so.
My ed ofc wants validation but at the same time i just want to be left alone. I hide the most disordered stuff i do to avoid confrontation, everything else my parents see is my own "normal". Im not as sick as i used to be, my parents have compassion fatigue &no one rlly cares
I just feel like ive never hit rock bottom with my health no matter how low my weight has been or how severe my behaviors are/were. So how much more so if i should have been severely medically compromised but wasnt, now i eat more and weigh more so im absolutely alright now
How am i supposed to believe i can actually die if ive been an extremely low weight, tired hurting miserable but alive. I even had even had 1 blood test come back perf at my lw. Admittedly id always try tricking them, either it worked that time, not others or my labs were fr perf
I have some health stuff going on ig but nothing life or death day to day as long as my electrolytes r good. Part of it is me mitigating the severity of my ed, telling myself its not so bad im sure but srsly, my health cant be that bad if ive never even fainted even at my sickest
Ive had my ed since i was a pre-teen so i dont have a high hw so what if im just faking my ed and my body is supposed to be this small. Yeah i know my lw is low but currently im no where near my lw, closer to my hw then my lw so what eating disorder?
No matter how compulsive my walking is it doesn't feel like exercise addiction i kinda just view it as part of my ocd
Smaller things that make me feel invalid are. I walk a lot but dont feel justified calling it exercise addiction because its so light impact, not a structured workout program, and it barely even burns cals bc im short & uw.
Not that im judging myself bc its what feels safest, but i get too in my head what other ppl think of me bc of that and thats what makes me feel ashamed like im such a faker. Thats food guilt finding a different avenue to torment me with i know.
Volume eating, saving my calories for the end of the day and high restricting (purposefully eating my tdee and maintaining) so i end up eating A LOT of food at night. Thats probably the biggest thing that makes me feel bad.https://twitter.com/ariispo/status/1439843431220584450 …